Hikari

Huaaa... baru bangun nih!
Asli hibernasi total hari ini.

Dari abis sahur tadi, tidur tapi kebangun-bangun terus karena bolak-balik kamar mandi.
Trus mulai dari jam delapan sampe jam setengah empat sore tidur. :P
Tidurnya pake acara mimpi-mimpi aneh lagi. Lalalala!
Padahal ini hari pertama puasa, tapi setengah hari dihabiskan dengan tidur.

Walaupun kata Nabi, tidur pada saat puasa adalah sunah, tapi aku kan udah kelewatan tidurnya.
Ini efek karena tadi malam nggak bisa tidur juga gara-gara banyak nyamuk di kamar =..="

Sayang banget waktu terbuang sia-sia hari ini.
Parahnya, aku nggak bisa tidur cepat dan khawatir besok bakal berulang lagi kayak gini T__T

Last night I remembered my late grandma suddenly.
Then I cried. I really really miss her so much.
I missed everything in her. I missed to hug her when I wanted to sleep.
I mssed when she cooked me various meals.
I missed when she learned me how to sew.


But, she had too possesive.
Even though she never angry to me,
but I feel now her possessiveness make me weaker to face world!
And I really need her. I need her support, need her in every situation and condition.
Poor me!

Now, I'm just alone!
I really regret when she was still alive and she became senile, I always angry with her.
I didn't want to sleep with her anymore. I forgot her!
God, forgive me!
Grandma, forgive me!
I really regret with what I've ever done to you!
I'm not a good granddaughter.
But you always my best grandma in my heart.



Now, I cry again remembering you always!
I really miss you grandma!
Forgive me, please!
Give me a strong heart to face the world without you.
And pray me to be better as long as I live in this world.

Love you, grandma!